A bit emo

[taotrooper]

- I have to give my brothers Math lessons again, today, tomorrow, and more next week. A long, frustrating afternoon awaits me. They know shit about polynomials, and they have an exam on Friday. Plus four other units.

- My family sucks. But I won't dwell on that because I never do.

- A week and so till Yuletide, and I barely have a vague idea to write about. At this pace, I won't get a beta on time. And I'll be all this week with the Networking practice PLUS the fucking eighth grade Math lessons.

- Ironically, I feel like writing. I miss my Eriol-tachi and their cuteness. I want to make Ushiwaka ramble and ramble. I need crossovers with Okami to happen. The medicine seller talking cryptically to his oh-very-fanon father. Yuuko and Clow chilling at Kamiki village and sampling some of Kushinada's Thunderbrew sake, while The Flower dances with Sakuya-hime. Clow finds the travel guides from Celestial Envoys fascinating to read, and he wants to go to the capital and Ryoshima for the sights; Yuuko prefers to find Sasa Sanctuary and take a dip at the hot springs and be pampered.

No, no sight of the two characters I MUST write for Yuletide. And I don't allow myself to write any of the above until I'm done with my assignment. Nor engaging in longish RP logs.

- I also miss making icons and layouts, but I can't do anything until I solve my driver problem on the desktop (Larg). I wonder if people miss my icons. I wasn't a BNF or someone particularly good, but some people liked them enough to ignore the averageness of them.

Comments

[maypirate.livejournal.com]

Is it at all possible that if you allowed yourself to write something small that you really do want to write, that it might inspire you? Maybe as a small reward for things being such a bummer right now? It's just a thought.

It seemed like you needed a hug, so I hug you now, and I hope that things get better, or at least the load gets lighter. *hugs*

[rainmage.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the hugs ;_;

I don't know, I'm also tied up with schoolwork and my brothers' Maths and I just caught a cold. Doing anything that's not Yuletide OR programming code has become a sort of luxury, and that's why I feel guilty. Especially since I've had gazillion days to actually work on both, but of course I had to leave it all to the last moment. It all sucks for procrastinating for weeks.

[solesakuma]

Mi hermana se llevó Matemáticas por los polinomios (y porque yo me había olvidado completamente de todo).

[rainmage.livejournal.com]

Buff D: Y no tenía nadie más que se lo explicara?

Si así es con polinomios, espera a que llegue trigonometría y límites y logaritmos. Yo no puedo esperar, persomalmente, porque eso SÍ que se me olvidó todo y ya lo odiaba en su día x_x Si Dios es misericordioso, al menos Danny se irá por una carrera humanística o artística. Porque si uno de ellos o ambos llegan a ver cálculo en la universidad, se las verán putas porque yo ya me he olvidado felizmente de todo lo que no necesito putas derivadas, putas integrales.

[solesakuma]

Mi madre y mi padre, que los dos empezaron (pero abandonaron) carreras con matemáticas. XP

La matemática la puede, le cuesta muchísimo y como este año le tocó una muy mala profesora, todavía peor.

[rainmage.livejournal.com]

Ah, la maldición del mal profesor de mates. Ellos tienen la del año pasado, que sigue igual de pirata. Para mí que esta vieja seguirá dándoles por un buen tiempo, así que estoy maldita...

[laurus-nobilis.livejournal.com]

I second maypirate's idea of writing something small. Maybe that'll put you in the mood for trying to write the Yuletide fic?

[rainmage.livejournal.com]

The problem is that I lack the time to write period, for the reasons I just explained above to her. And if I have to spend inspiration, it should be in something WITH a deadline (a deadline that happens to be the same day of my Operative Systems practices, ouch) I compromised to write about. I don't know, I think I can write it in one or two days if I can get the muses to work in a moment I'm at home, but then it might be too late to get a beta for at least the grammar.

It's all a matter of time. Yeah, the idea seems good, but not if you have three different responsibilities to worry about for the next 9 days.