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THEANONYMOUSMEME

Out of your chests, please. I need insight. Or you know, just leave me silly messages to cheer me up. Anything, I feel lonely.

You know, I miss the times I used to ramble about things, bring epileptic trees to the table, point out silly things. I want to retake... some passion. I want to make more meaningful posts about the new and old fandoms I experience, I want to make fansites, I want to write fanfic without feeling down afterwards, I want icons I'd wear myself. I want to enjoy things and not being to shy to shout about it. I feel sometimes that nobody's listening in and outside the computer.

I'd blame it on losing most of my files/scans. I'd blame it on the summer moving away too fast. I'd blame it on RPs for eating my sanity. But honestly? It's most likely my insecurity hindering me again. Or my paranoia, whatever.

I will try to return to my roots next month, after I'm done with my exam.

And a confession: I tried to have a sockpuppet in a fandom I like but my fellow shippers of my favorite pairing embarrass me too much to do anything but lurk. I just wanted to use it so I could post fanfic. It didn't work well because I never felt comfortable nor found friends in friending memes, so right now that I'm in a writer's block I only use the account to check that fandom's communities out. I'm socially awkward even for that kind of sleazy stuff.