Journey into Mystery

I had to restrain so badly and not to put humor samples.

I feel a bit strange by looking at those iconmakers and then looking at my icons. Mine look like someone puked a bag of skittles on them in comparison. Probably people don't use that kind of colors and textures anymore. I have no idea what kind of techniques and trends others use anymore, as I've been off the "scene" for such a long time. I wouldn't know how the fuck they get those smokey or pastel colors. My resources are years old and I don't know which ones to get.

So out of the loop. I like making icons, but at the same time I feel like I'm stuck in ancient times and no one remotely cool that isn't in my flist would like mine. There's also the fact I haven't learned to color manga so I've been wussing out on that area. This is why I want to make more FMA icons but I haven't dared. I wouldn't know how to put shadows and lights. Could I get away with simple-colored manga stuff? Or should I not even bother?

Oh, and I don't want to do icons of CLAMP lately. Which probably disappoints those watching mine and hamsterfactor's icondork because of that fandom. At the very least, I should tackle FMA as I still like it tons and maybe no one will icon the manga ever again with the new anime.

Funny enough, I've felt the same about fanfiction. Instead of writing for my older fandoms -except Okami, but there's no solid fandom for it-, I want to try it with my newest ones. But I feel so intimidated! Ace Attorney don't seem to care about genfic, and I haven't poked TotA but I doubt there's a lot of that either. And I have plotbunnies for the pairings I want to write about, sure, but I've never written for non-canon pairings and I wouldn't know how to do anything that isn't OOC or silly humor. I feel awkward. A-any tips for that, by the way?

(Oh, and I feel like a hypocrite because I once said I don't like to use fanart for icons, yet I want to make them now -with doujinshi, however; I wouldn't feel Kosher in using online website art, especially Japanese. But only with game icons. Might be the lack of canon expressions to use in RP what warmed me up to them.)

tl;dr: I've been an awkward turtle when it comes to participate in fandom the past few months, mostly because I'm afraid people would think I suck balls.

Things I've learned this week, the hard way.

• No matter how large your disk is. BACK SHIT UP. Actually, back important things up in pendrives. Put entire/long series on CD/DVD.


• If you're carrying a handbag filled with books and a large folder? Don't decide to take a walk around and go to a large store. Your forearms/shoulders/back will be killing you for days.


• If you're in a hurry and also you're taking the bus, for crying out loud, don't put your money inside the pocket of your coat, and then forget to pass it to your wallet. Because they'll be accidentally dropped or stolen in a Murphiesque fashion.

I've been the paragon of moron this week, and we're only halfway through it. I lost 40 euros today. STUPID STUPID STUPID!

Sigh, I'm sorry. I've been sort of emotional lately. I should be nicer to you guys, stop whining, not getting worked up for petty things no one but me gives a shit about. Even when Amazon's stock ruined my perfect birthday present woes. So, I'll try to smile more. I'll try to intimidate you guys less. I just don't know how to be nice or likable or charismatic. I'd feel like it's forced or something.

I'll do some of the letters I was given in the alphabet meme, but there are still a lot without claim. So, you can still ask? ^^;

( Ranting about: Avatar, Genfic, Hats, Pets, Shounen, Umbrellas )

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I accidentally formatted my USB disk when I installed Linux.

I JUST LOST ALL MY FILES. MY WEBSITE FILES. MY ICON FILES. MY GALLERY IMAGES I HADN'T UPLOADED YET.

MY USHIWAKA SCRIPTS, I COPIED FROM THE GAME. A BUNCH OF TCG CARDS I HADN'T PUT UP YET.



WHAT THE FUCK. I'M SO STUPID. WHY DIDN'T I UNPLUG IT BEFORE TOYING AROUND?




ETA: Also, the laptop cable will be 75€. OUCH.